Posted in Odd Thinking


This is a combination of medium blue-green color. We can also add yellow to it if you would like it to be brighter. 

You may also watch it from this YT page. Acrylic Combination
Well, if you really know me, I really like the color Green. It’s vibrant, pleasing to the eyes, fresh…. and it’s nature. 

But you know what, it’s time for a change. I I’m not fond of the color green anymore, it changes into Teal. 

My mom said, “Finally, you’re awaken!” 

Hahaha. Not too sure why I laughed with the humor but yeah, I did realize, it’s time to change it. 

I don’t know what happened but I thought to myself that I don’t like it anymore. Maybe because I was too much back then. With all the green stuff. They also told me that my mind is also green. Much greener than the fields in Spring and Summer. 

Everywhere I go, If there’s green, I want to have it. I will compliment it. I will try to get it from you if you have something green that I can use. Haha. 

It’s 2018. It’s a great year to have changes. It sortta bringing out being a new you. Everyday is suppose to be a new day. Represent yourself as you are. 

Hurray for Teal! 

Posted in Coz I'm Bored

Alone. Songs in my head.

songs in my head
Oh, yeah!

‘Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone

How do I get you alone

I feel like singing the song, Alone by Celine Dion. Haha.

No. I’m really alone in the office. What I meant was, my workmates doesn’t have a shift today so I’m the only one who’s present right now. There are people who works other than me but they’re on a different team. I feel like I’m really alone. No support available. They’re far away from me.

That I love you
I’ve loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
And you’ll never go
Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

by Nickelback

Songs in my head. Whew.

It’s already 3 in the morning. This is the time that I wanna watch The Walking Dead. I know that the mid season will continue and I’m really excited for their comeback. The Neagan thing is out of this world.

Princess Jasmine: A whole new world
Aladdin: (Don’t you dare close your eyes)
Princess Jasmine: A hundred thousand things to see
Aladdin: (Hold your breath, it gets better)

by Aladdin and Jasmine

Haha. I don’t have anything to do right now. I’m kindda sleepy and I wanna go home. My stomach hurts and I think ate a lot of ice cream. Strawberry with cookies and cream then Double Dutch. AAww!

It’s now January 16, 2018 and this post is way back 2017. Hahaha. I have so many posts that I didn’t manage to post. Bad me. Haha. Anyway. I’ll start with this one!

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Year 2018

Nope. If you’re thinking that I’m gonna tell you about my new year’s resolution, you’re wrong.

People tend to list down their new years resolution but do they actually do it? Would you say that you’ll just exercise the next morning because you have eaten alot during the holidays?

Well, if you really wanted to see the change, start it now. Not tomorrow, but right now. You won’t go anywhere else not unless you started something and determined that you’ll finish it.

I really wanted to change but for all these years, it’s never done. We can start the process in the middle of the year or sometimes in the beginning if you can. What matter’s most is, you do it. No excuses.

This year, 2018… I don’t know what will happen. I have a new job again and this time, I hoped that this is what I really need for me to function well. I don’t want to screw anything up. I’m worried.

Anyway, moving forward, it’s supposed to be just a normal day. A new beginning because it’s a new year.

I wish Papa is able to see this. We miss him.

Well, HAPPY NEW YEAR fellow bloggers and to everyone!

Posted in Odd Thinking



Friendship. The word friend plus the word relationship.

How would you know if friendship is really formed?

You’re okay the other day but the next day you aren’t. I’m confused and bothered by it. I just thought that the person who you can rely on will always be there…

I was wrong. I don’t know if I am, but the feeling is hard to obtain. It’s a never ending quicksand. I felt like I’m gonna drown by my own thoughts. Am I still important to the person?

Do I still have to ask if the friendship is over?
Yeah. I get tired. Sometimes I still wonder if it’s worth it or not.

I’m drifting. Far, far, away….

We don’t need a translator to know what it’s supposed to be. I have cut off some people in my life. Some come back but it’s not the same anymore. Maybe that’s the reason why they left, because they are not suppose to come back.

I’m not perfect. I can’t be with you with all your problems but it doesn’t mean that I’m not with you along the way.

I admit, I’m stubborn. Hell, I am.

I also have too much pride but there are limits to everything. I can lower it for you if you can also do the same for me too.

I have said my goodbyes before and maybe I have to say it again. I’m not gonna make it easier for myself and I want to make it much easier for you.

A friendship is something that is unbreakable no matter what, and maybe it is if it’s the right one.

Friendship formed. Friendship lost.

Casual talks, I’m fine with that. It’s been years but yeah, I’m done.

Posted in Coz I'm Bored


Time Off

I would like to have a time-off. A full rest. A full sleep. A full of everything that I could think of.

People get tired and so am I. It doesn’t mean that we have to stop from there. We just need to be out there… to feel like you’re free.

I’m not feelin’ it. I’m a prison of my thoughts and courage is beneath me. How will I ever conquer such madness.

A vacation, like a week… that’ll hold it. Somehow.

I can’t describe what I’m feeling right now. It’s like someone is grabbing my neck so tight that I can’t breathe. I don’t wanna think about it anymore. I want to let it out.

I want to get out.


Posted in Have Gone Mad



How long have I’ve been mad with a person?

Not much.

I can forgive them but I don’t forget what they did. It just kindda stuck to me.

Or maybe I’m just the forgiving type… I’ll be the bigger person in the picture. I wanted it to be. No pride must harm any relationship there is. It won’t take you anywhere but on the wall that can’t be cracked.

I always play in my mind the question, what if?

What if it’s my last day on earth, would you do something different then when I was alive?

What if I can’t bring back the relationship that we had before? Can we start all over again?

What if there’s too much to live for, but we take it for granted because we always thought that tomorrow can be a different day and there’s a chance that it might turn our luck around?

What if you won’t see that person again, would you like to know if you could turn back time and save anything that is lost?

Time is endless and we can’t turn back the specific date that we screwed up. Use it wisely. Once you have done something negative… learn to know what are the things that you need to do if you are mad about something.

Every clock is ticking.

Watch yourself doing the right thing. Other people will do the same to you.

If you’re angry, don’t hold a grudge. Talk to that person directly. It’s more effective to let everything out instead of holding everything in. It’s not healthy. Don’t wait for you to explode inside.

Take a deep breathe.

Let it out.

Posted in When I wake Up...

Rollercoaster Elevator

Roller coaster Elevator

I once have this dream of going to work. If you know my work history, you would know me. For those who didn’t know about it, well, I’ll just say that I hate my job.

So, okay, back to the dream.

Maybe, unconciously, because of feeling like carrying a huge burden everytime I go to work, on why I had this dream.

It seemed like, me and 2 of my co-workers jumped in this elevator. It’s made of glass. You can see everyone from the outside.

Then later, I’m wondering, why does it feel like the elevator doesn’t go up to the 9th floor. I am astounded as when I checked, we were headed to a different route. Forward. And there it goes!

I don’t know what to do but we’re like in a roller coaster! It will go, ‘swooshhh’, straight forward then, left and right, where ever it feels like turning to. My body is being blown away so I have to hold on to one of my co-workers. Or sometimes to the handles of the elevator.

It sure is a bumpy ride.

It really felt like Im riding one of the toughest ride in Enchanted Kingdom, like the space shuttle but I havent rode it before, but now I think I know the feeling, and without the safety buckles or anything.

Especially the moment when we are about to drop from the highest peak of the ride. I sure am able to hold on for dear life.

That’s when I realized, Im able to go back home and checked the time that it’s already 11am. I thought my shift was 9am-6pm. Haha.

At the end, I didnt go to work and just went to sleep.

And thats when I woke up.

Maybe I really dont want to work and I just have no choice as of the moment, but still, it’s looks like a sign.